...leaving my boys so far away from me.
...thinking about other people taking care of them.
...not being able to see their developments.
...not being able to protect them.
...spending so little time with them.
...knowing this is not a temporary arrangement.
amir (abang long) is growing up so fast. he loves to count (like his mummy). he would count everything in front of him, from the stairs, to corn flakes, to grapes, to his toy cars. he loves watching the telly, he has memorised some of the scenes and dialogues from monsters, inc. he sees so many things that we cant see. he loves to follow what hubby and i do and say. he loves lying down next to asyraf. he's so attentive and so concerned about asyraf...baby cry, baby susu, baby tidur, he would inform us as though he's the only one who knows what asyraf is doing.
asyraf, the very difficult baby, has changed so much. he's finally smiled at daddy and mummy. he's starting to gurgle and coo at us, especially at amir. he loves watching amir and would stare to see what amir does. he has been sleeping for 6-7 hours at night, waking up only at 5am for a nappy change and a bottle. he loves the baby carrier and would sleep for hours in it.
leaving asyraf is harder as i didnt have time to bond with him. i had amir all to myself for a year, not that its enough but i had time to get to know him. i feel like i dont know asyraf, not as much as i want to.
my babies, i hope you know that if i could, i would never ever leave you. i think of both of you every single second of the day.
Japan 2016 - Leaving Tokyo
4 months ago